Networking

Aaaaahhhhh! I'm already losing steam on this project. I feel myself waning...thinking about the blog and then distracting myself with something else. Like training for my half marathon, which was this past weekend. I've run half marathons before and started doing 3-5 mile jogs several months ago. When I realized my half was three weeks away I crammed in two longs runs -- an 8 mile run and 11 mile -- over two weekends. This lead me to consider over and over again during my 13 mile event, why (oh why oh why) did I wait so long to prepare? My conceptual pain, brewing in my mind didn't motivate me much for several months. However, during the run, it was obviously trumped by physical pain in my body. Similarly, conceptual joy is always trumped by satiating myself in the moment. So how to rewire this network?

I just went on a walk and came back ready to process my own question. Well, that and a particularly inspiring coaching session. In my formative years, I hated to eat. My mom is a fabulous cook but back then Korean food was just not that appealing - too many edgy colors I guess. So relatively, anything American was a treat but a rarity in our household. My brother and I were latchkey kids so when it was just us, I would microwave Velveeta cheese slices in a bowl until they were melted in the middle and crispy on the outside. Seriously, I'm salivating while writing this. I was also one of those kids you hear about who would pilfer tiny slivers of butter off the cube and eat plain. It was an act of rebellion and independence. Maybe it was a coping mechanism. Ideally, I would like to say, there is some special mineral I needed in processed dairy that caused me to act this way... you know, like kids who eat dirt. Whatever it was, it happened early on.

In telecommunications, I would say this is cable laid by the operator. It's buried deep in the ground and goes from point A to point B. Now, I'm trying to go wireless. I'm trying to create new demand for a new product and I am my own consumer. I need help. Maybe I should post my food journal on here.